Adjustment Update

Hi everyone!

The last time I posted I was having difficulty adjusting to my Nick being home. I am here with an update: the adjustment period is over! Everything is back on track with the way things should be.

I must admit that sometimes I feel as though I am "over sharing" and other times that I feel as if I do not relieve enough of myself. So here are some facts:

My name is Brittney (as you know) and I am 22 years of age. I am married to the most loving and wonderful man I have ever met. We have been married 1 year, 2 months, and 30 days and looking forward to at least another 49 years of marriage if God is willing. :) Hmmm.... let me think..... I was born and raised in Texas and yes I do say "y'all" a lot. I met my husband at the lowest point that I have ever been at. We met in July of 2010, dated for 3 months, married on October 18th, 2010, and that is the basics of how we met.

Ok so I am getting tired and cannot think straight anymore lol. I'll try to post more often in 2012 than I have in 2011 and I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Years! :)

Duty Days

HI everyone,

So I have noticed that on "duty days" my whole day is just empty and, well, wasted. I make plans to do something and stay busy but I never go through with them. I was just wondering if it is like this with other wives when trying to get used to these days.

I wasn't really given a chance to get used to anything before Nick had to go to Maine and all that. I am having a very difficult time adjusting to him being home and then on duty and then home. I don't really know why and I feel like a bad wife for feeling this way.

I am happy that Nick is home, it's just really hard to get used to it again. We had a month of married life before he had to go away and now that he is back.... it's just hard.

Any advice?

-<3-
Brittney

Song of Solomon( yes, the entire book)

Ranting and Raving :)

So I have joined Pinterest! And I am addicted already lol.

The other day I found the cutest picture of pug puppies ever! I cannot remember where the picture is orginally from but it is too cute not to share!

Is it not the cutest?! I have also decided that I want to join a book club or start one up where I am with the wives from my hubby's ship and others that I know.

Ok well gotta go for now but I'll be back!! lol

-<3-

Brittney

Proverbs 31

Ummmm.....

So, awhile back I posted about my depression and anxiety. The anxiety has greatly improved while the depression is taking longer to gain control for a better health.

I have to take it day by day and not expect it to just vanish one day when I wake up. I believe that knowledge is the hardest to overcome.

Well, I need to go do housewife things lol :)

-<3-
Brittney

1 Corinthians 13

My First Underway :(

Ok my hubby went underway this morning and I am kinda have a hard time with it to be honest.

:( How do others do this? He hasn't even been home for a month.

ok my nephew is attacking the computer lol so bye

-<3-
Brittney

Goals revisited!

I am not doing so great with my goals for my health and wellness. Heck I am not doing so great with anything right now :(.

I am failing school, gained weight instead of losing it, and my depression is up and down all the time! I am trying to get back on track with my health and weight loss so that when we decide it is healthy for me to have a baby then my body as well as my mind can handle the process.

I am overweight and it is seriously affecting my mental state. If anyone has any idea of something that could help me with all this please suggest. 

Alright I need to go run errands with my sister so bye for now.

-<3-
Brittney

Long time, No post

Ok, so I haven't been posting on here in awhile. I have been going through a lot within my family.

My Great Grandma Wilson passed away on October 26th, 2011 and it has been really hard on me and my family.

This is gonna be a short post and now I am saying goodbye. For now.

-<3-
Brittney

3 days, 10 hours, 26 minutes

Sorry I didn't post this weekend but I was under the influence of bronchitis! It completely sucked because I had the worst cough and headache all weekend. Luckily I am well on my way to being over this ickiness! lol

I am super excited about this coming Friday! I get to see my wonderful hubby. :-D I miss my Nick so much!

Ok so I started back to my schooling. Yay! I'm nervous and excited about starting back up so close to my trip to Key West. Truthfully I wonder if I can even do the whole college thing. Nick keeps telling me that I can and it helps so much (when I actually got to talk to him every day).

I am out of things to say :/ so goodnight y'all!

Book suggestion: Passion by Lauren Kate

Can't wait till the 4th book is released!

-<3-
Brittney

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

6 days, 6 hours, and 59 minutes

So close to seeing my Nick! And I have bronchitis....

It always pops up when I do not need it to. Such as a long awaited trip or a big event that I plan on attending. I suffer from asthma and chronic bronchitis and have since high school( that I know of anyways).

That and pneumonia. These two illnesses always get me at some point. Sometimes their timing is hilariously brilliant and other times aggravatingly misplaced. I always wonder why they hit when they do but later find out why.

Anyways, away from talk of illness.

My trip is going to be awesome.... sick or not! Lol I am looking forward to hearing Nick's voice, seeing him smile, feel his arms around me when he hugs me, and just everything that makes him who he is. I love him for his loving me for who I am. Crazy and all!

He makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world when I am feeling down and out. Who could ask for a better husband? I miss him every day but would not trade him for a husband that I get to see every day!

Ok so it is really late and I need to go to bed. So goodnight my readers and may your day be filled with joy and laughter.

:-]

Book suggestion: Torment by Lauren Kate

Second book in the Fallen series and it is better than book one! (in my opinion they just get better the farther into the series)

-<3-
Brittney

John 3:16

7 days, 13 hours, and 5 minutes

That is the amount of time before my flight leaves for my Key West trip..... and I have a massive cold! It is just not fair at all.

I am going to the Dr's tomorrow for this cold and hope to eliminate the darn thing before the 23rd.

OK so I'm gonna end this post and drink some Theraflu hot drink mix.

Book suggestion: Fallen by Lauren Kate

Great series overall!

-<3-
Brittney

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

9 days by my count :)

In 9 days I will be flying to Miami and then driving to Key West to see my gorgeous husband!

I'm excited but I miss him so much right now. I have not spoken to my husband in 5 days and it is the longest we have gone without talking over the phone. I know that we have been fortunate up to this point because even though he has been away since November 28th, 2010 we have gotten to talk to each other most days.

To others who are married to members of the military and have gone months without getting a single word from their spouse, I am proud of y'all. This is showing me just how strong you have to be to be married to a military man (or woman for you guys that read this) and God is showing me every day just how strong He made me.... much stronger than I thought! 

Even with my depression and anxiety I am doing great. It is a huge accomplishment and step forward in my life with Nick. He has been so incredibly supportive in everything that my issues have caused. I am beyond proud and thankful to call him my husband, my sailor, and my best friend.

I am looking forward to having our own place again and to get back to San Diego in mid-October. I am so excited to decorate our little home once we have one out there. To say that everything is going to be perfect would not be telling the truth but it will make me perfectly happy. When I say that everything may not be perfect I mean the fact that we will still have to pay bills, buy groceries, and all that stuff. I LOVE my life with Nick and would rather take the months apart than to not have him in my life at all.

Ok so I believe that I have ranted enough for the day and wish you all a great one. 

Oh book suggestion: A Pug's Tale by Alison Pace

Great book so far!

-<3-
Brittney

Jeremiah 29:11

Key West countdown!!

OK! So the countdown has begun. I am now at 15 days till I get to see my husband in Key West!!

No I am not counting today and that is because my flight leaves early in the morning so I am NOT counting the day the I am currently going through lol. 11 days sounds like heaven since I get to spend most of it with my gorgeous sailor. :)

Well that is all I can think of to post :/ oh well.

Catching up!

Hey everyone!

I know that it has been several days since my last post and I am sorry for not posting. So much stuff has been going on that I lost track of my days! :)

Anyways, I went to the Minnesota Renaissance Festival on Saturday (my 22nd birthday!) and it was the coolest thing ever!!!
It was my first birthday away from my family and my husband wasn't there because of his orders. I share my birthday with my now 93 year old great grandmother and she has been ill; therefore I broke down and cried until it hurt.

Everything turned out almost perfect despite my breakdown. You never know just how tough it is to be suffering from depression and to try to be completely happy around others without eventually breaking down.

If anyone else is suffering from the same issue of depression I encourage you to seek help if you haven't already. It helps it really does.

-<3-
Brittney

Short post...

Hi everyone,
So today I received a call saying that my Nanna (my mom's mom) had a heart attack and is undergoing a triple bypass in the morning.

Please pray for her?

-<3-
Brittney

Tears

Have you ever cried about events in your life? Of course you have.... everyone has at some point in their life.

It can break you down bit by bit. Especially if you are a Navy wife or any branch of the military wife. You have to go through all the pain and tears almost completely on your own. It hurts and it is scary. I wish that Nick were here with me and helping through all that is happening here right now.

The worst part of all of this is my depression. It makes everything seem worse and/or that there is nothing I can do to change things.

Nick tells me that everything is going to be ok and I believe him beyond a single doubt. I know he knows more about the people involved than I do. This just makes me miss him more and more than I already did.

I love you Nick.

-<3-
Brittney

Key West!!

Ok I am so super excited about Key West next month!!

Nick's ship, the USS Spruance, is being commissioned October 1st and I get to spend a week and a half down there spending time with him. :) I'm so excited!!

For the trip I have made a few decisions regarding my health:

1) Workout at least once a day 6 days a week or everyday throughout the week
2) Feel better about myself and my depression
3) Cook a spectacular dinner for my hubby in the house that we are renting (with his family) for the duration of my stay in honor of our 1 yr anniversary

They may not seem like important or major decisions but to me they are and I want to succeed in my desire to improve.

Thanks for reading! :)

-<3-
Brittney

Issues!!

Today's Topic: Issues.

The hardest thing to admit when you are a Navy wife is that you have issues. Personal issues that affect you day to day.

For me the issues are moderate to major depression and generalized anxiety disorder.

Wow... admitting that is hard. I hate feeling like a failure because I do suffer from these. It makes you feel alone and useless. For me it hurts because I am a new Navy wife and I am already suffering from issues!

Admitting that you are depressed is like admitting that you are not good for your husband. My therapist says that I am not a bad wife it's just that I am different from everyone else. 

So the lesson for the day is this:
You are yourself and no one else!!

-<3-
Brittney

My new life as a Navy wife!

Hi I'm Brittney. I became a Navy wife on October 18th, 2010 to the most wonderful husband anyone could ask for!

First off let me tell you about before my husband... I swore up and down that I would never marry a military man because I didn't want to worry and wait for that visit/phone call/letter (which ever method that they use these days).

I was so afraid of falling in love with someone in the military that when I met my husband.... I just couldn't deny myself the joy and love that he offered. :)

If ever I thought that I wouldn't marry a man in the military, my Nick changed all those thoughts the day we met. It was love at first sight and all that jazz lol.

<3 We are approaching our 1st anniversary and are thrilled about it. We have spent the majority of our first year apart due to TAD orders and he is almost home!! Yay!! The first year is the hardest I've been told.... yeah it may be but that hardship can make a love stronger than ever imagined. <3

-<3-
Brittney :) 

You put your arms around me and I'm home. -Christina Perri "Arms"