Short post...

Hi everyone,
So today I received a call saying that my Nanna (my mom's mom) had a heart attack and is undergoing a triple bypass in the morning.

Please pray for her?

-<3-
Brittney

Tears

Have you ever cried about events in your life? Of course you have.... everyone has at some point in their life.

It can break you down bit by bit. Especially if you are a Navy wife or any branch of the military wife. You have to go through all the pain and tears almost completely on your own. It hurts and it is scary. I wish that Nick were here with me and helping through all that is happening here right now.

The worst part of all of this is my depression. It makes everything seem worse and/or that there is nothing I can do to change things.

Nick tells me that everything is going to be ok and I believe him beyond a single doubt. I know he knows more about the people involved than I do. This just makes me miss him more and more than I already did.

I love you Nick.

-<3-
Brittney

Key West!!

Ok I am so super excited about Key West next month!!

Nick's ship, the USS Spruance, is being commissioned October 1st and I get to spend a week and a half down there spending time with him. :) I'm so excited!!

For the trip I have made a few decisions regarding my health:

1) Workout at least once a day 6 days a week or everyday throughout the week
2) Feel better about myself and my depression
3) Cook a spectacular dinner for my hubby in the house that we are renting (with his family) for the duration of my stay in honor of our 1 yr anniversary

They may not seem like important or major decisions but to me they are and I want to succeed in my desire to improve.

Thanks for reading! :)

-<3-
Brittney

Issues!!

Today's Topic: Issues.

The hardest thing to admit when you are a Navy wife is that you have issues. Personal issues that affect you day to day.

For me the issues are moderate to major depression and generalized anxiety disorder.

Wow... admitting that is hard. I hate feeling like a failure because I do suffer from these. It makes you feel alone and useless. For me it hurts because I am a new Navy wife and I am already suffering from issues!

Admitting that you are depressed is like admitting that you are not good for your husband. My therapist says that I am not a bad wife it's just that I am different from everyone else. 

So the lesson for the day is this:
You are yourself and no one else!!

-<3-
Brittney

My new life as a Navy wife!

Hi I'm Brittney. I became a Navy wife on October 18th, 2010 to the most wonderful husband anyone could ask for!

First off let me tell you about before my husband... I swore up and down that I would never marry a military man because I didn't want to worry and wait for that visit/phone call/letter (which ever method that they use these days).

I was so afraid of falling in love with someone in the military that when I met my husband.... I just couldn't deny myself the joy and love that he offered. :)

If ever I thought that I wouldn't marry a man in the military, my Nick changed all those thoughts the day we met. It was love at first sight and all that jazz lol.

<3 We are approaching our 1st anniversary and are thrilled about it. We have spent the majority of our first year apart due to TAD orders and he is almost home!! Yay!! The first year is the hardest I've been told.... yeah it may be but that hardship can make a love stronger than ever imagined. <3

-<3-
Brittney :) 

You put your arms around me and I'm home. -Christina Perri "Arms"